MarieTrout

Walking through the blues.

Polarization and Distrust — A One-Two Punch to Morale

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 29 · 3 min read Underlying our predicament at the moment, is the fact that as before we had to self-isolate, we were already isolated in groups that are deeply suspicious of each other. It is difficult to find common purpose and pull together as a group, when we for years have been telling ourselves and ...

Incubation Blues — Day 9 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 28 · 3 min read It is as if time crawled for the first seven days. Each day felt like a month. As this new, restricted way of life becomes reality, the days are coming a bit faster. Life settles into a new routine. Dealing with the loss of used-to-be is still right there under the ...

How to Survive the News during a Pandemic

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 27 · 3 min read These days, when I watch the news, I often end up feeling emotionally charged. I feel powerless and confused. I feel tribal, overwhelmed, fearful, alone, and depressed. I feel sold to. I don’t know who to believe, what to think, and what to do. All commercial or cable news programs are ...

Incubation Blues — Day 7 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 26 · 2 min read It is like a scream in my throat that I cannot let out. WHEN WILL THIS END? Each day, I see it getting worse and worse. More people are dying. It is clear that it is not going to end any time soon.This morning, I realized that this whole COVID-19 experience ...

Incubation Blues — Day 6 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 25 · 4 min read Each night when I go to bed, I think about the day. Is there something that rises to the top? Something that puzzled me? I work though it in my thoughts just enough to define it. Then I let it sink into my subconscious mind for sleep treatment. When I wake ...

Incubation Blues — Day 5 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 24 · 4 min read My anger came roaring back yesterday. In spite of my strong start in the guest room working out, I ended up watching too many hours of cable news. It reeled me in. I normally have good cable news-watching boundaries and do so only in brief spurts. But not yesterday. The TV ...

Incubation Blues – Day 4 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 23 · 4 min read The initial shock, denial, sadness, and anger of having to sequester in place for an unknown amount of time is starting to subside. We humans adapt. Walter and I continue to work. But figuring out how, has been challenging. Some of my anger has surely been because of a sense of ...

Incubation Blues – Day 3 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 22 · 2 min read The question hung in the air for a bit. I looked over at our eighteen-year-old and wanted to answer comfortingly. But I really didn’t want to offer some half-baked attempt of being reassurer-in-chief. I don’t have any words of comfort to offer. “Honestly, I have no idea. Nobody knows really.”“Well, mom, ...

Incubation Blues – Day 2 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 21 · 4 min read Up again early. The stillness is spooky. It feels like I’m in prison. A prison of circumstances beyond my control. I like being in control. And I am not. The gym is closed, so I will need to figure out a strength-training regimen to do here in the house. But not ...

Incubation Blues-Day 1 of the Shutdown

Posted on March, 30th 2020 by Marie

Marie TroutMar 20 · 3 min read Day 1 of the shutdown. It is 5:27AM. It is eerily quiet — even for this hour. My bedroom is dark, and I have nowhere to go. Yesterday, the last appointments and meetings canceled, and my calendar is blank. So is my brain. The red, digital numbers on my alarm clock ...

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