MarieTrout

Walking through the blues.

When The Holidays Aren’t The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

Posted on December, 28th 2015 by Marie

How to manage expectations during the holiday season when your life is full of pain. It is impossible to be in shopping malls and restaurants at this time of year without hearing Andy Williams crooning about, how the holidays are “the most wonderful time of the year” But that doesn’t exactly ring true when we ...

Telling it like it is – On-and Offline – in Sickness and Health

Posted on October, 8th 2015 by Marie

I was scared out of my wits, when I first started writing updates about Walter’s journey to get a liver transplant. His body was failing a little more all the time. He was becoming physically, emotionally, and mentally unrecognizable, and both his and my emotions were all over the place. Everything was so uncertain. The ...

Living in the 10%

Posted on April, 10th 2015 by Marie

One year ago, Walter and I spent our first whole day at the Nebraska Medical Center.  He would undergo thorough testing for them to evaluate, if he could qualify for getting on the waiting list for a liver transplant there. We had left our home and our kids behind in Southern California. I was devastated ...

Kicking Ass

Posted on February, 10th 2015 by Marie

Three days ago, my world sank. It felt as if I ran right into a wall of darkness.   Walter had no appetite at breakfast, but went about his business. A few hours later, he came home from a run to Trader Joe’s looking really weak. He felt hot to the touch. Since he is ...

When it Rains it Pours – Personal and Spiritual Practice in the Face of Adversity

Posted on July, 6th 2013 by Marie

    This is my second attempt at writing this post… the first one was eaten up by the software-updating gods at wordpress.org. It happened after I had spent hours on refining it and getting it just right…. From now on I am writing in Microsoft word and cutting and pasting into my blog…. Lesson ...

To Gun Or Not To Gun

Posted on December, 16th 2012 by Marie

Arriving in Denmark with my American family to celebrate Christmas with the Danish part of my family - I was shook at hearing of yet another violent American incident involving weapons and innocent civilians. This time, the most innocent of innocents: Little children. And as my emotions kept me awake for part of that first ...

Good Grief! I Am Falling!

Posted on October, 4th 2012 by Marie

Yesterday morning I was walking at 4:30AM. It was foggy and dark. A delicious time to walk in peace and quiet. The fog was like thick oatmeal and the dampness of the air was invigorating, sprinkling my face with a cool mist. I was lost in thoughts as I walked. I felt connected to all and nothing ...

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